Just

Walking slowly.

Controlled by the beat in my chest

a false rhythm

Just false.

As the dust swirls up

unsettled by my presence

Reflections of my thoughts

Stubborn memories;

refusing to let go

Walking slowly 

Controlled by the screaming in my head

Panicked noise

Just panicked

As my feet carry me further

I can't fight the urge

Ignorant doubting

"Things will change"

Forewarned by experience;

Naive expectations

Walking slowly

Controlled by the voice in my ear

Reassuring beauty

Just reassuring

Damaged pathways 

Emerging in every direction

Routes destroyed in violence

Fear. 

Anger. 

Desire.

Steps stolen from beneath me;

Given back with her whisper.

Walking slowly

Controlled by my past

Hauntingly outrageous

Just haunting.

Travelling into darkness

Wishing him away

resisting the urge to run

I am afraid to trust him

Broken promises prop forgotten dreams

It's not my road- anymore

Walking slowly

Controlled by my future

Terrifyingly unwritten

Just terrifying

Allowing myself to be led

Blindly following 

Hands gripped tight to lessons learned

Never again

Can't look into his eyes

Not anymore

Distracted by her;

Thankfully.

Walking slowly.

Controlled by desire.

Unforgivable teasing

Just unforgivable.