I never wanted to dance

Another old one that I decided I would put up...

I never wanted to dance

I don’t believe in fairytales

Things don’t go

Happily ever after

For me

I never wanted to whisked away

Carried off in strong arms;

Arms which will shelter me,

Protect,

Love,

Support,

Me throughout life.

I never wanted to cry -

[Joy]      filled     tears

Streaming

lines

down

my

face

Mapping stories of perfection.

 

When perfection comes

Life acts

What you want is taken

Abruptly

Cruelly

Predictably

Leaving you with empty hopes

Turning your wanted life

Into a cadaver of stinging disappointment.

 

I never wanted to dance

For to dance

I would have to believe in the

music

And to believe in the music I need to

Lose all inhibitions

All memories

All scars.

Raindrops slicing new wounds

Blades sliding

Ripping

Bleeding

Warning me

I can’t cry

For if I start I fear I will never stop

I will continue through sleep

I can’t

Believe.

I can’t pretend

That all things will come good

That this is just a glitch

A momentary misjudgement of my emotions.

 

I never wanted to dance

I am not that girl.